The world

Getting my tragus tomorow .

Just like it and putting the ring barbell :) .

Okay , i don know if people actually see my blog so hey , If you do thanks .

the small short post about fuck up people ,

yes , i still strongly believe that this world is full of fuck up people .

i have no more mood for school , the people there are bullshit . i mean i am not perfect , but i mean seriously , they really think they're like cool and stuff . cool has no defination , its you being yourself is cool . And all they want is to copy something. hypocrites , and fuck up bitches .

yes , i am fired up right now , i mean like i had enough of bullshit .

I mean i just wanna be who i am and not having friends who bitches and backstabs .

yes , pick your friends wisely , and fcukyeah , i know it well .

They copy some style , and do stuff people dont and say its cool .

and than if someone copies , they get all fuck up .

And the way they treat their friend is a load of crap . Bullshit .

The world is just a ball of crap .

fuck it deep .

Bullshit .

trust no one , not your parents , not your friends , trust yourself and you'll soar far .

From the fact that half of this post consist of the world f.u.c.k ,

its just like every fuck mention , its like me showing my anger .

I believe that i am good , but not good enough , the results doesnt show .

I am so pissed for what everyone did to me , the past or the present .

ignoring someone is different from forgiving someone .

ignoring means it will have a tendency of coming back while forgiving its already gone .

I am in a process where i choose to be alone , lay on my bed , choose not to text , and do some searching on where i should be . What do i really want to be ? and who i really am ?

who i want to be with . Out of million of friends they are only a few which would really stay.

But now i have a crisis of finding a single one . The key and the lock is useless if they dont go together , they key will end up forcing itself in the lock till finally its stuck or break , where meaning a level or understanding is breached .

i lay infront of the screen thinking of everyone who has a part in my life and some i dont need .

some i thought are my friends who are not , and some that i dont really want to be friends with. People who i really detest and people who i just cant be with . People who i judged , or people i do not know and judge them .I believe everyone goes through a time , where they re think about the people around them . and i believe i am in this stage . I am not being a loner now , or alone , i choosed to be left alone , to re-think . I never drifted but i am keeping a distance . I believe than checking up on that someone twitter , or blog that i really hate shouldnt be it . i mean anything appearing there pisses me off , so whats the point . I believe my source of anger right now is from that particular person , and i should choose to avoid her and distance myself. I need to calm myself and rethink . I shouldnt hate the person style , the way they talk , or be so sensitive , i should learn the best virtue that will bring me far , ignorance . I admit i have issues of self control , as many incidences states , and i believe i need to change that . I cant blame them , they are being "them" but i can choose to ignore them ,

This practically sums up how i feel .

why don’t we just stop pretending alltogether that we are best friends. I’m sick of the shit you two are always pulling, making the rest feel guilty whenever something doesn’t go your way. Fuck you. You weren’t there for me this entire year. So fuck it, I’m not going to smile and pretend everything is okay with me anymore, like I always have done, every fucking time. You want me as your friend? Then show it. I’m done.

Sick of all that childish behaviour. Grow the fuck up.

but then , i dont know i should ignore that person , i mean like

I've always said that hate is a strong feeling and that I don't hate anyone. But now I know I hate you, I'm disgusted whenever I even look at you. It's one of those feelings you can't describe. If you died, it would make me happy and I'd fucking thank the person who killed you. You're a fucking pathetic excuse for a human being, I actually HATE you with everything that's inside of me.

this is how i feel , but i am tired of getting pissed of hating someone , so i choose ignorance.

eventhough if i block you of , i will tend to see you everyday , and thus this is how i feel .

Its true , i cant deny .

I cant deny .

So ,

to finding peace within myself .

To calm myself , to rejuvenate .

And re-think .